Isn’t life grand with all the wonderful opportunities to grow and change? Sometimes we grab on and take the ride, then other times just let it pass, saying not ready this time. There have been many times in my life, that I would get frustrated with a situation or person and want to immediately cut it or them off. I noticed after turning 40, I have been less inclined to push things away. I realized that I missed opportunities to learn, from doing that. Also, I don’t need to fix things or cut things off, because there is a natural course that needs to happen. It’s not always about ME, but the other people involved. We are put together to learn lessons from each other. If I cut off the opportunity for others to get to where they need to be, then how am I helping them or teaching myself patience or what I’m supposed to receive.
Anytime I find myself getting paranoid and wanting to control something, then I take a step back and not do anything. I realize that I’m the one, in the battle with myself. I need to let go of the external “thing” and deal with my internal struggle. The past year has been a HUGE lesson in PATIENCE! Between waiting on a short sale to close, my job, my boyfriend’s job, our relationship, starting a new home-based business and a few other things, I have had to be PATIENT! I used to keep my running shoes handy, not just to run in the traditional sense, but to take off from the problem. Unfortunately, each time I left, I took ME with me! Plus, I wasn’t teaching myself to just be in the moment and to see what will happen. Amazingly enough, things just take care of themselves and work out. “Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions” Rainer Maria Rilke WOW, “live the questions”!!!
I had to let go of the old me and weather through these challenges. People have said to me that they would have given up by now, waiting on this house, but I’m not going to. It’s important to live life and not run from it. When I reflect on the times I almost gave up or ran, I would have missed some really great things, the past few years. That gives me more courage, to be patient and work through the current difficult times. Now I try to embrace the very things, that I would have normally run from.
Life is a JOURNEY. Don’t be so quick to push aside things, that don’t feel so good. Look for the lessons that need to be learned and be content with it. Be patient with your loved ones, when you think they should walk from a situation. They are living their life lesson, just as you are. There are obvious times when we should walk from something, especially pertaining to abuse. However, if you dig really deep, you’ll know if you are running from the situation or not.